Monthly Archives: September 2013

I am nobody

If someone asks me who I am, my answer is: I am nobody. It has been my answer for several years and will continue to be my answer even though I have seen Charles Mansons answer to the very same question.

Then why am I nobody? Because I have failed at reaching any kind of societal status? No, I’d say it’s the other way around. It is the fact that I am nobody, that has led me to my present status. But why then do I continue to be nobody? The simple answer is that the gain is far more rewarding than the loss.

To cut it short, it doesn’t matter who you think you are. What does matter is what you do. Do you love others? Do you try to help them? These are actions most people can succeed at doing.

Acting in accordance with ones own morality is what life is about. So persons who try to be someone, in others as well as their own eyes, by compromising their own morality are sad twats. They have to live with their double standards, and thus cannot live life at its fullest.

Thus, the answer to the question why I’d rather be nobody than somebody is that actions are more important that identity. Moral is more important than identity. Harmony with one self is more important than harmony with the surrounding society.

Game of Thrones

Recently I have come across the tv show Game of Thrones. And I must say that I am impressed.

I seldomly find amusement in tv shows. For some reason, they do not address my feelings except on very rare occassions. Twin Peaks succeeded in doing that. Seinfeld, Simpsons and Friends are humorous shows which moves the heart. But otherwise tv shows are mostly plump and boring. And I blame the scripts, which in many cases are not wellwritten enough to be aired.

But when me and my girlfriend ran out of unseen episodes of How I Met Your Mother, I had to find some other TV show that we could watch together. And after disregarding some unpromising shows we started watching Game of Thrones. Now we cannot stop.

To my surprise, I find GoT well written. The scriptwriters have used the TV medium as best as they possibly could have. They know how to use conflict. They know how to present simultaneous events. They know how to raise the stakes. They know how to breed unpredictability. They know how to manage a great cast.

Though, Game of Thrones is not a show for the weak of heart. There are quite explicit sex scenes, heterosexual as well as homosexual. There are a lot of gore. When people die in battle, GoT is on the verge of being a splatter movie. And the story also covers many tabooed themes, which I will not spoil in this text, but some people might find them shocking or even appalling. And since the show do not hesitate to cross borders, we who watch, never know for sure what will happen next. This uncertainty is exciting to some and repelling to others.

Therefore, if you are not easily offended by narratives, I highly recommend Game of Thrones. You might be provoked to continue watching.

The Result of Not Trying to Win Arguments

Eric Barker has written an article with the premise that one should not try to win arguments. The reason is that by not trying to win arguments you might win knowledge instead, which will be far more beneficial than the actual winning of the argument.

In the end Eric makes a clever riposte, by asking us to prove him wrong (i.e. make him lose his argument).

I will not prove Eric wrong. I believe he is right. Though, I’d like to perspecitify his statement and thus perhaps help someone to learn something.

It is correct that by not winning arguments, you heighten your own possibility to learn instead. I should know, because I have lived by that motto for many, many years by know. Since my initial university studies I have always seen disagreements as discussions rather than arguments. As I discuss with other people about anything, I try not to persuade others that I am right. Rather, I try to find truth instead.

And surely, I do learn more by the discussion way than the argumentation way. But it comes at a hard, hard price. The result of not trying to win arguments is that most people disregard anything you say.

The reason why most people ignore those who do not try to win arguments, is because the non-argumentative people lose status. The main reason why people bicker about tit and tat is to gain status, because a persons status makes other people listen more apprehensively to him or her.

Someone, like me, who never tries to win arguments, but instead give credits to proper arguments and agree to my reasoning mistakes, will continously lose status and respect, while at the same time, for each discussion, come closer to a better understanding of the subject discussed. Thus, paradoxically, those who know the least are arguing most fiercly for their standpoint and vice versa.

As a society, we have built structures, as higher education and so forth, to reverse the paradox of argumentational certainty. Anyone who has thought the least about human nature knows that the most argumentative people can abide to authority, and higher education creates such authority.

But refraining from argumentation in order to discuss instead, without proper authority, is a hazardous way of living. You just have to look at me. I am a creative, on verge to genial person, much thanks to me discussing rather than argumenting. But the price I have had to pay, is that almost noone listens to me and takes regard of my knowledge, opinion and ideas. This also applies to my job applications and networking as well. Thus, I am very close to the bottom of the societal hierarchy, working as a postman with very low income and about no status at all.

Therefore, not being argumentative is good for your personal development, but disastrous for your social status.

I Will No Longer Care

Declaration. From now on, I will no longer care. About what? the presumptive reader might ask. I will no longer care about anything. Surely an overstatement, but nevertheless I will minimize my caring of everything.

Backgroundstory. I have cared. My whole life I have cared. I have strived for exceptional quality. In everything I have done, I have strived for, not perfection, but exceptional quality. And sometimes people have noticed and have appreciated my achievements. Most of the time the essence of my quality mark has been overlooked. Sadly, I would have added until an hour ago. But now no more.

I have reached the comprehension that quality matters little. Well, people say they care about quality. Institutions praise quality. Companies can not stop telling their outside world how much they care for quality. But for real, most of the time quality is an obstacle in the way for efficiency. People do not have the ability to notice quality when it is found. Most of the time, what people call thinking is just a slight breeze on the surface of immense sea of prejudice. Which is understandable for reasons I surely will explain in a distant future. Nevertheless, my striving for quality has led me to the lowest of the lowest position in society. I, a genius, who always tries to do better than best, to outperform my own achievment, to develop whatever process I am working on, is considered to fit a place where the mental capabilities is more suited for people with lower iq than 100.

I have come to the understanding, that if I stop caring, I will succeed much better than before. This will surely have consequences. First and foremost in this blog. I will no longer care about what I write here. I have cared, which inevitably has led to the smallest production possible. My striving for quality has been a barrier in my way to success. From now on, the articles written in this blog will no longer have any theme of any kind. These articles may be about anything. Which anyone who is the least blog savvy knows is blogging suicide. But I will no longer care about that.

I will no longer care about small typos or mispellings (that one was intentional). I have not the time to reread what I have written. I will tolerate using pidginese Swenglish any time of the day.

The last time I listed the books I must write to reach inner peace, they counted up to 140. I have no longer the time to reread whatever I have written, to reach some quality which noone ever cares about anyway. Because neither do I care.

If you can stand the lack of quality in my writing, then you are more than welcome to follow this blog. Of course you are welcome to follow this blog though you can’t stand the lack of quality. But now you have been warned. As if you will read this. Noone reads the posts here at this time, because noone cares about quality.